Phantasm!

 

Phantasm!

 

Those streets, silent like a dead man’s heart

One that I ran through, knocking on that turf

Knocking hard, running violent, losing breath

Dark night Dark Street and dark ravens

Flying by me, flying over me

I was lost, I was scared, fear of reality

(When are we not, we drink own blood, we rise)

Ho Ho! Somebody laughing, who it was,

I looked around, those sleepy vehicles by road side

Street lamps, one that seemed punished to stand still

And to watch over, those dogs sniffing around garbage dump

Or that whore waiting by the roadside to lure somebody

I kept running, faster, and more desperate

To run away of all those mocking thugs

To not to get crushed under the screeching wheels of those vehicles

Light scared me, my shadow dragging me down

Oh I hated him, or did I hate myself

I could not think, I was unable, or helpless

(As we are every now and then)

Pity! I kept running, to the end of the lane

I could not see anymore, or I was already in there

Darkness awaited me there, I felt hypnotized

Eyes see only till mind wishes to, mine was dead

Muscles cramped, nerves twitching, still

I could not stop, I felt heavy pain, gasping

I had to follow, like a slave, running behind his master

I was slave of my shadow; ray of reality was playing with us

Only darkness could save, I wished to dissolve into

My knees passed away, I fell onto my face

Fell like a tree, one after being cut

I could not cry, I could not move

Or I was merely not allowed to,

Remember! I had already become a slave

Slave of illusions, slave of dreams

As I slowly became the part of darkness

Darkness inside black ink of pen in my hand!

 

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 22/05/2013

 

 

 

 

 

A Nightmare!

A Nightmare!

 

As I see myself burning

I smell hate and revenge

Inflammable thoughts

Shrinking voice

I start to loose my sight

My words fly in ashes

I try to scream

Crackling bones chew my voices

My eyes filled of smoke

My senses blinds me

I cannot even cry

I look above

Moon turning red

Alike scary vampire

Desperate to bite of my shoulder

To taste my free flowing blood

Night gives us privacy

Under its thick blanket of darkness

I lay naked

I surrender

I let myself go loose

I see my fleshes turning black

I see my blood drying

Over my stoned eyes

I see myself flying high

I see myself dying slowly

And I wait for

Some vultures to wipe out

Left trash of mine

 

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 02/05/2013

 

 

 

 

 

Retrospection!

Retrospection!

Her eyes, wicked, cursed

Tempting to a canny feast

Crying blood, an unsaid need

Brutal, yet you fall to be served!

Fear not, you will not be harmed!

She announces swiftly, standing still

In state of dismay, you hear her say

An offer, tempestuous, so hard to let go

You let her hold, piece of self

Let her nails screech through, and

You see blood rolling over your feet

As she quenched her thrust upon

As slipped past the time, grew the lust

One that she called her dark love, mystical, like

Shadow of darkness, never to exist, but

Some flickering moments of imagination

Knock, knock! Ends the dream; Nightmare?

You look around, dozed, and lost

Trying to remember the taste of her lips still

Frightened, a sense of being cheated, conned

Alas! What was it?

Love, lust, or a mere act of selfishness

As life acts every now and than

Winks and mocking upon our stupidity

Laughing over naïve consciences

Passes by, showing us the mirror of truth

Mirror! That never lies.

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 04/04/2013

Self renaissance!

Self renaissance!

Through the remains of flesh and bones

Under the smokes of burned thoughts

Dusting away the ashes of pursuits

As it rained words, smell of déjà-vu!

Blank, it saw, as the world appeared

No noise but sound of life and death

No colors but black and white, faded

Strange it felt, yet calmness overlaid

Where is it, what is this place?

Why cannot it find any of its own trace?

Memories lost, and no trail

Neither any souvenir, nor anything to confess!

Emotions intriguing, felt to engulf

Crumbling feet, yet, moment of loving pain

A sense to arise, to see pristine self

He stayed there, in silence, alone in that vast plain!

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 19/03/2013

She!

She!

She is in silent urges

She is in thunderous screams,

She is a breeze of cold air

She is fierce like a burning fire,

She is a moment of sadness

She is a life of smiling stars,

She keeps herself tied behind walls

She flies away like a careless butterfly,

She is like a pearl hidden inside an oyster

She is like moon shining above day and night,

She is in love, she is in hate

She is in smiles she is in tears

She is in courage, she is in fears,

She is in finite boundaries

She is in infinite universe,

She is in creations and the creator

She is to be loved

She is worth die for,

She is women!

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 08/03/2013

Their Virgin Love!

Their Virgin Love!

Their virgin love,

Their teenage romance

Like that shy rose petal in the garden

Smiling in innocence, carrying

That heavenly smell within, though

Unknown of its beauty yet

Like those dew drops, shining

Through the sunlight, diamonds

Over those fresh green grasses

Who seemed to be woken up to a sunny day

After a night of hailstorms

Like that cold breeze swirling through

The garden, whistling like a hippy

Happy in its own, poking along

Those left over clouds, making them tickle

Letting them hover across the grand blue sky

And watch them play, hide and seek with nature

Like that river stream, flowing through those hills

Singing, dancing, playing across

Hugging those big rocks along the way

Appearing in a hurry to reach, to meet

The sea, its destination, its love

Like a night of darkness

That awaits in kind of desperation

For the moon, for that sensual feeling

To get drenched in its raining white light

And feeling no shame going naked in front

And let it kiss, let it take over self

And then to just stay there

Lying beside each other, and

To look for a falling broken star

And to make a wish, for

Their virgin love,

Their teenage romance,

If that dusk could have no dawn

If that night could have no end,

If that moon could have stayed there as it is

And if they could stay there like that

For the rest of their life

Their virgin love

Their teenage romance

Through a fantasy, a dream!

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 27/01/2013

We Shall…!

We Shall…!

Behind those hills

Along the banks of the Ganga

A glimpse of hope

A sight of life, still

Away from war and peace

Away from heaven and hell

Away from love and hate

Away from everything, and free

A sight of life, still

Who was it, that

Eyes were searching for

Ears were trying to listen to

Breaths were trying to sense the warmth

Fingers to feel the touch

Bringing a joy to the heart

Unknown, still

Sipping a cup of coffee

Listening to the muse of the soul

Watching the sun kissing itself in the water

I think of you, I think of me

An image floats through the wind

Someday, somewhere

We shall meet!

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 13/01/2013