Existence!

"Individualistic existence is like that of God's particle, you do not exist for anyone else but yourself, nobody knows about you, nobody appears to recognize your being but you. You float across as winds sail by remaining there as one breathes high and low. Such existence are destructive, you cannot expect them to build you dreams, it could give you moments at its best, moments that make that momentarily existence worth the risk, risk that wreck you in and out. It might end up leaving you neither dead nor alive but it will certainly give you an instinct to feel the vibe of life, life that goes beyond certain rules, rules that define life for many, life that doesn’t exist for most.

It is often hard to imagine one beyond a shoulder to hang on to. We need a figure to look unto, to dream of, to romanticize into, and to idealize oneself to. We make gods who characterize best of us, who could love better, who could live better, who could fight better, we crave lovers who inspire us in the dead of nights to lead us into soul-searching, and we immortalize images for we need someone to tag along while passing by dead of darkness. To confront self in those dark moments are scary and we often contemplate ourselves as weaker as one could end up being, it might end up one being on his knees scared to raise his eyes for he would get to see himself ready to strangle his throat for being a coward.

Dead of nights could be devastating, it might cut your veins open and ask you to watch it till the last drop fall apart, only to lick it all back before dawn spreads its wings asking you to fall back in line. Life reacts in no other way. A night alone in the woods, by the stream beneath a dark sky could resemble a whole life, where you might end up dreaming of the moon or end up jumping down the stream to drown yourselves.

Probably that makes it beautiful, that instinctive approach, that momentarily life. That is not supposed to last any longer but as long it takes to destroy oneself. Probably life is all about destroying self as gloriously as possible, what else. Wonder!

By: Praveen Parasar

Date: 22/10/2015