The Meaning Of ‘Aham Brahmashmi’!

I searched for thee

In brightness of sun light

In soothing moon light

In the darkness of night

In blinking stars, small and bright, but

Never found Thee!

Dived into infinitely deep sea

Climbed to top of hills

Went along those singing breeze

Flowed across those dancing streams

Crossed those deadly evil deserts, and

Sneaked past those mysterious forests, but

Never found Thee!

Searched thee, in the idols placed in temples

Searched thee, in chants and holy books

Searched thee, in love and hate

Searched thee, in; what they say, good and bad

Searched thee, in my ego and pride!

Oh Lord! Forgive my insanity

Forgive me that I forgot

There’s nothing called you and me

That always thee has glowed in me, and

I am wrapped in thee

Forgive me that I looked for a separate existence

That never was, or never would be

Forgive me that I could not understand

The meaning of ‘Aham Brahmashmi’!

(Note-'Aham Brahmashmi'  is a holy line mentioned in Vedas that says God and me are same)

I Kept On Trying, To Write,

                             Again And Again!

One day, when I could not write anything

I tried, and tried hard, again and again

But could not find words to bring it down

On paper, what I felt, was it my emotion, or anger

Or just some stupid thoughts?

Though they kept on floating around

Like a fragrance coming from

Newly opened lips of rose

So tempting yet like a free soul

Impossible to be bounded!

Still, I kept on trying, again and again

Felt a strong thrust somewhere

To scribble it down, I kept on hitting paper

With pen, but it did not come, confused

I felt helpless, broken, I looked around

But suddenly it all seemed going out of sight

Afraid and scared, I cried

Like a child, all alone, felt weak like never before!

Still, holding my pen

Close to my heart with all the strength left with

A sense of not to lose it, at any cost

An urge to bring it out on paper,

To write something, somehow

I closed my eyes, and looked within

This time, to try to scratch it there

On the walls of my bleeding heart,

And, it came, finally some scribbling,

Bringing a sigh of relief

Through a wave of pain, made me smile

Though it did hurt more than ever

I kept on trying, to write,

                           Again and again!

By:-praveen parasar

Date: - 09/12/2011

Bring That Fire Back To Me!

Bring that fire back to me

One that put sparks in my heart

One that left my eyes burning

One that left me feeling like a piece of coal,

Turned red and intense

When came in touch with fire of thee!

Bring that fire back to me

You showed me once

When sun was hiding in clouds, and I needed it

To look around and look within

As they say it nurtures life, and

There were you with fire of thee

Though too immature to understand

The power behind it, went almost blind

In the midst of ultimate darkness

Unable to withstand the gaze of thee!

Still never wanted to let it go out of sight

It tempted me to burn self

More and more, completely,

Confused and amazed, I tried to hold on

And gazed upon, to feel the heat,

To let it make me vanish in soaring flames of thee!

It was unbelievable feeling,

One that left me speechless,

Left me overjoyed even I lost my existence

Existence that was never mine, ever!

And I could feel the heat within

That you put in my heart, and suddenly

The darkness was gone, cold heart had the spark

And, it was turned to a firing volcano

Capable of burning anything and everything!

Oh, How great!

It felt to be a part of thee…

Bring that fire back to me

Want to feel that same again

Want to lose self once more!

BY:-PRAVEEN PARASAR

DATE:-05/12/2011

Lets stand for yourself!

Today is going to be a night of rage

A night of hate, a night of war

A night of destruction, a night of sin

There have been ages, it’s time now

Lets burn it with fire; lets turn it into hell!

With evil making room, and goodwill loosing edge

With no sign of life, and dead dancing all around

With airs suffocating, and water turning toxic

With clouds raining fatal, and sky full of blaze

It’s time to stand tight; it’s time to stand tall!

It’s been ages, with a bloody cry for compassion

What eyes have gone blind looking for, and ears turned deaf

Missing whom did you ask for it, one with cold blooded heart?

Oh you poor soul, why this act of stupidity, why being coward?

Don’t you feel shame; don’t you feel sorry even once?

No more! Lets end it for now, lets end it for ever

Lets break the shackles, lets free thy soul

Lets shut the evil shrill with sound of thy holy spirit

For one last time, to a new world

Lets stand for what is yours; lets stand for you!

BY:-PRAVEEN PARASAR

DATE:-25/11/2011

An insight…!

A silent night

With a dim moon light

Away from the crowd, anyone

That could be in sight

I am sitting atop roof, alone

Enjoying a glass of wine!

It feels so different

Sometimes delicious, yet

Sometimes burning

Still I continue, with a hope of help

That people say

It would get me flying

In the air, careless, like a kite!

I am not sad, neither upset

Nor disappoint, but

Feel something missing, yet

Do not want to look for it,

Do not want to ask for it, just

Want to enjoy the emptiness,

Want to touch the blankness

Want to feel the darkness, left behind

Of that missing part, using it

To carve self, I am

Just holding back my breath

To start the ultimate lone race

Once again!

BY: - PRAVEEN PARASAR

DATE: - 08/11/2011

Let’s fall in love, again!

Let’s fall in love, again!

The grasses are still green

On them thee walked upon

Like a jovial doe,

The rose petals still shy

On them thee touched thy lips

Giving it a heavenly redness,

The due drops still shining

That came falling through thy hairs

Keeping the scent within,

The divine nature still embarrassed

In vision of thy dusky eyes

Like a deep blue sea,

The breeze still caring the euphony

Of the words thee whispered

Like a nightingale singing

On arrival of spring, but

Eternal Beauty seemed to be

Lacking something, wrapped in

The clouds of sadness,

As a moon in eclipse, and

Thou were sitting along

The river shore, watching the sun

Going down, with tears in eyes

Like a cursed angel, waiting

For thy love to come,

O dear! No more evil wait

Let’s write a chapter afresh

In our story, through this tender winter,

That’s desperate to feel the warmth of our embrace

Come; let’s fall in love, again!

BY: - PRAVEEN PARASAR

DATE: - 25/10/2011

When you walked by my lane…!

When you walked by my lane

I still remember the footsteps, that

Knocked on doors of my silent heart

Filled it with a swirling euphony, like

Of a hanging careless wind-chain!

When you walked by my lane

I still remember the sudden change

In essence through the air, magical

It was, like a blow of morning breeze

That had come passing by a sleeping rose!

When you walked by my lane

I still remember the richness of colors

All around, through my life of

White edges that was just filled, suddenly

Like a first sketch of a kid, uncertain

Though overwhelmed with fascination!

It’s been long, since you have gone

Memory of you is still fresh, hidden

In the core of my heart, like a pearl

Inside an oyster, that writes this afresh

At every moment, I still enjoy this sweet pain

O Dear! Memory of Thy!

BY: - PRAVEEN PARASAR

DATE: - 21/10/2011